Simply Sleep...

An oxymoron if you ask me. But anyways, due to my health problems as of late, I have tried this was of "sleeping simply." Ha ha ha. When your mind and your heart are full of thought, worry, emotion and dreams, you might find "simply sleeping" nearly impossible. I want to document my life. I want to jump back into the conversation about spirituality and the church. I miss getting fired up about current church affairs. Yet, the thought of actually renewing my membership in church culture scares the hell out of me. Will it just be the same it has always been?

Today, I was driving in my car. I drove through the scene of a yucky accident. There were police on both sides of me along with a mangled car and people in shock on the side of the road. Naturally, I slowed way down to make sure I was not hindering the process. Well, the guy behind me was not amused to say the least. He rode my tail through the accident scene and then proceeded to speed by me as soon as possible. The thoughts in my head were these... "Stupid, Mexican, Illegal Immigrant treating me and others like crap!" Then as he sped by, I noticed his license plates said "honorably Discharged Veteran." The guilt was immediate. This guy serves my country and me, and here I am being an absolutely idiotic, judgmental, snobbish, b*%ch!!!

It is times like these when I conclude that I am why people do not like Christians. I want to change! I prayed for forgiveness immediately, but I must change!

We must change! The church must change! I want to follow Jesus. Yet, my actions speak louder than words. May we as young people who are seeking to know Christ strive to be the generation that does change. May we start with ourselves, and in turn impact change for the world!

Simply put... I love God, I am not perfect, I need forgiveness, there is too much on my plate, and yet, I am going to try right now to "Simply Sleep."

Goodnight...