Your faithfulness stretches to the skies

I am very aware of my human nature today. This week threw a financial crisis my way, and I FREAKED out! I began to question why I would sacrafice to be a part of a church plant, I asked myself why I would make such a stupid decision, I asked myself how I was going to make it to May 15th? My doubt is overwhelming! So, my phone rings today, and it is an insurance company calling about the car accident I was involved in last December. They are wanting to reach a settlement with me for my sustained bodily injuries! WHAT??? THEY WANT TO PAY ME??? I am shocked, and blown away. I will be able to move, I will be able to make it through May 15th and beyond. God has called Nick and I to Blue Sky, His Faithfullness is un-changing. Why do I have to be so human and doubt? I love the Lord! May we all find more trust in Him today!

Dear Sally...

Sometimes there are people in our lives that are meant to walk beside us through good times and bad. All of my life, I have connected well with older women. I so welcome their wisdom, experiences and hearts for God. I feel extremely blessed to have the amazing mentors that I do. Today, I feel renewed, I feel cared for, I feel valued in my thoughts and in my gifts, I feel strength and I feel understood! God is good. I look forward to what lies ahead for me, for Sally, for those of us who God has called to be a voice for Him and His church! May we be a voice of signficant change and hope for a new generation of Christ followers!

The Hardest Part

The hardest part of working in a church community is when you have to leave. I just got back from visiting my sophomore girls small group from Cherry Hills. I absolutley love those girls! I miss not being a part of their lives! I hate that I am no longer a part of what they do together. It was hard. I guess change is just really hard for me. Tonight was a great reminder for me that I love students and I so enjoy being a part of their lives! It will be interesting to see how God uses that passion in me in the future.

Extreme Makeover Home Edition

So, I am not one for really promoting TV shows, but as I sit here and watch this show bring hope to the communities that were destroyed by the Hurricanes, my heart leaps at the potential a show like this has to inspire people to serve each other all over the nation! They have even created a web site to connect people to each other so communities can become better, safer places to live. www.abettercommunity.com. I wish all of TV was like this show. Tonight, they are re-building a church that was destroyed and talking about the grace and mercy of Jesus Christ! I pray that we as followers of Christ and lovers of His people would support this show and other things like it!

I-25

Do you ever find your heart just overwhelmed with memories? Do you ever find yourself in a place that you are so desperate to remember exactly how you felt at a certain moment in your life that it almost hurts? Today I find myself in one of those places where my heart is flooded and somewhat overwhelmed with specific memories of my past. They are such amazing moments and times in my life that I feel near the verge of tears as I remember those times and miss them! Maybe I am just the ultimate, emotional girl, but I thank God that I am able to recall the sights, sounds, smells and emotion of certain events in my life. This all started last Saturday as my husband and I were driving to Ft. Collins to visit Horsetooth Resevoir. I have driven that same road hundreds and hundreds of times. That road has seen me through so much hurt and heartache, yet so much joy and love.

My first time driving from Littleton to Ft. Collins was when I was a senior in high school and I drove myself to CSU to audition for the Colorado State Golden Poms Team. Now, 8 years later, I sit in my new Honda with my new husband and drive back to my old life that is now going to be my new life as I move back to Northern Colorado. Funny how things work out that way. I think of the people that I have loved and lost along the way. I don't know whether to laugh or to cry. As I look back on my college/ 20 something years, I am overwhelmed by the things I have been able to be a part of, the experiences I have had, and most importantly... Those people whom I love and have made such an impact on my life. As I look back, I see God is all of those events, experiences and relationships. He has been right there with me all the way, even though most of the time I ignored Him. All of these things have shaped my heart and who I am today. The good, the bad and the ugly. And, believe me, I have had plenty of all three...

My parents separation
Moving to Fort Collins
Dancing for CSU
Falling in love for the first time
Becoming part of a real community of friends
Experimenting with my wild side
Loosing my first love
The death of my friend Katie
The Columbine High School Shootings
Great friends, Sarah, Mikael, Austin, Brandon, Jenn, Rene, and the list goes on...
A three year love affair
The rape-6/24/00
Surrender to Christ-7/4/00 The Next Level Church
Getting my first dog- Jackson Riley
Call to youth ministry- 8/00
The death of my roommate and friend Krissy
Transferring to CCU
September 11, 2001
My parents divorce
Moving to Denver
New Life Church
Un-employed
My dream job at Cherry Hills as High School Pastor
Meeting my future husband Nick
Dating
Passion for church change
Passion One Day 2003
Illness
Depression
Traveling with the Crowder Band
Being a part of the conversation
Falling in love
Crooked Creek
Engagement- 2/14/05
Marriage- 7/15/05
Illness
Devastated by the mega-church
Counseling
God reaching down and re-igniting the passion for Him in my heart!
Blue Sky Church
Moving...

And that leads me to today. April 6, 2006. I have been married for almost 9 months now, I have the most wonderful dog on the planet. I still don't know what the future holds for me health wise or job wise, but I am so thankful to look back and remember all of the things that have made me who I am today.

All this from driving that crazy highway you say? Maybe I am nuts, but I am thankful for every mile traveled on that highway, and I look forward to many more miles ahead of me on this journey!

If you are one of those people who has been a part of this journey with me, I want you to know how deeply I care for you and that you will always have a piece of my heart!